6. Stacey

6. Stacey

It wasn’t a good idea to

go on doing the same thing

year in year out, believing

at first she could/might

‘do’ better, which later (too

late) mutated into could/

might ‘have done’. So

Stacey’s grammar of self-

waste got generated from

possibility, through unreal

wish and longing, to impasse,

actual impossibility, plus

alternate self-revelling,

self-revealing, self-reviling,

in hypothetical pasts.

A dried husk of a self

shrivelled in remorse and

regret is all that remains.

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bitter                                 restriction

Translation:

6. 史黛西

实在不是好主意

年头年尾一直都在做

同一件事情，相信

一开始她能够/也许

“做”更好，以后（太

晚）突然变得能够/

也许“做了”。所以

史黛西自我浪费的

语法生成于

契机，通过非真实的

愿望和渴望，到绝境，

实际的不可能，加上

以假设的过去时

自我袒露，自我指责，

交替的自我作乐。

在怨愤懊恼中枯萎

剩下的全是悔恨。

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苦涩的                         约束